Maybe it's a little premature to start drop judgements and jump into conclusions so soon, but isn't that just what we humans are keen in doing? We judge people, categorise them, treat them different accordingly. Maybe that's the way it's supposed to be. Maybe our restricted minds just can't process the idea of all being individuals so we have to simplify what we have around us. Just to cope. If that's the case I believe we're doomed. If that's the case I fear it doesn't matter how hard we try, we are destined to screw up create enemies set up borders between them and us and when technology one day has progressed far enough we will eventually perish in a spectacular apocalypse. Or just silently fade away under our own stupidity. Maybe even without ever realizing our flaws and guilt.
But a part of me refuse to see our existence this way. I dearly don't want our struggles to be completely in vain. I want to believe we all can make a difference if we only want to. And I do want. You see, all my life I have felt like an outsider. Like I don't belong, like I really should be at some undefined somewhere else. Not here. Yet my presence is tolerated. Most likely barely. That feeling is hard to explain but trying to explain or define is not the point. The important thing is that it fuels my will to struggle, and I have to say I'm sort of proud of that creative use of my unsocial tendency. I just hope it pays off. I mean, all the efforts.
I just read what I wrote and I realize my view seems damn dark and pessimistic. But do you know why. Do you know why I just don't turn around and walk away. That would be the easiest solution. It's because I don't want to die feeling I wasted all my chances for nothing. Like a grand piano dropped from a 747. That extreme feeling of plunging through life towards the inevitable end. That's worth some struggles avoiding, at least to me.
Let's make 2012 a good one.
Much Love
Daniel
5 comments:
I think you are on to something Daniel. Especially if the Mayans (and how they have been interpreted) are correct!
People are basically lazy, and as such, any short cuts that are available, we use. And thats why group people into lots, why we jump to judge those that live/act/think differently than we do. Can this change? I think it already is/has. Think about what life was like even 20 years ago. What a huge change. Yes, I know there is still hate, and greed and pettiness, but think of the people that used to be outside society that are now an accepted part of it. People from different races, folks who refuse to look as everyone else does, and our lgbt family. While there are still many laws to fix up the inequality, and laws to get rid of, we are still ever so much more accepted than before. And its not like a begrudging acceptance, but those who accept us for who we are, accept us totally. I know, I know there are still so many bigots, but their days are coming to an end where their hate is allowed.
I think a great many of us feel like outsiders. And I think it comes from having to constantly hide who we are, it forces us to the edge of society, it forces us to camouflage our feelings and emotions, and causes space between us and everyone else.
Enjoy the new year friend Daniel, its your turn to shine!
What I read: Like a grand piano dropped from a 747.
What I Wanted to read: A grand piano dropped from a 747 foot cliff onto Wile Coyotes head! lol
wow, quite a post to process after reading.. seems like you have shadows lurking around you. We all hope a new year brings about good fortune, kinda like a clean slate, a new chapter in life & I hope you feel renewed in 2012. Cannot always stand in the shadows Daniel :)
btw, nice frosty Volvo S40.
All the best yeh? yeh! :)
Yes.
Lets.
Hugs,
Dav
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